je suis perdu sans toi

I know that I kind of slacked on my blog over this semester. I really meant to keep it updated, and inform everyone at home of every detail of my life, but I kind of got lost living it. I have been working on writing summaries and impressions of all of the places I got to go, so I'll start posting those soon.

I've been back in Auburn for 2 1/2 weeks now, and out of Europe for almost a month. It's really weird because I still remember everything like it was yesterday, and still constantly compare things to there. For instance, it was kind of hard working again.. I mean, I got used to not working, not to mention the awful work ethic and service of the French. The fact that servers here check on you more than just taking your order and delivering food is kind of odd now. Also, a lot changes in 5 months. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it when you first see people you knew, but when you start talking you realize how much has changed, and of course a lot of it is me. It's not that I'm being snobby or anything, I just really realize now how much I've learned. More than I've ever learned in a classroom. About life, cultures, love, and friendship. I've really been missing people lately. Paolo, very much, of course, but also everyone else. I miss beach days, acting like our life was difficult because we had pebbles instead of sand. I miss our IPAG group fb chats trying to figure out where to go that night. I miss Shem always juggling, no matter where we were. I even miss telling Myroslava to stay with the group haha.

I'm fine really, I'm happy in Auburn. But now I see how simultaneously big and small the world really is, and I can't wait to explore it all!

Here's the lyrics to a song that I'm really obsessed with now that I fully grasp the meaning of it(there's an English version too, but the French version is actually much more meaningful):

Simple Plan – Jet Lag (French Version) Lyrics
(ft. Marie-Mai)

Quel heure est-il où tu es ?
Un autre avion et tu repars
Je me sens si loin si tu savais
Et j’attends ton retour encore
C’est comme si on vivait à l’envers
J’aimerais te dire qu’on pourra s’y faire
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

You say good morning
When it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
Quand je m’endors tu te réveilles
Et je compte les heures j’en perds le sommeil
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged, so jetlagged

Oh Oh

Je te cherche quand tu n’es pas là
Dans une semaine je reviendrais
Je perds mon souffle quand tu t’en vas
Je m’imagine à tes côtés
Même si j’essaie de l’ignorer
Tu es toujours là dans mes pensées
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

You say good morning
When it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
Quand je m’endors tu te réveilles
Et je compte les heures j’en perds le sommeil
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged, so jetlagged

Je suis perdu sans toi
Je t’attends encore
Je suis perdu sans toi
Mais rentre il est tard
Je suis perdu sans toi
Et je veux vivre ton aurore
Je suis perdu sans toi
Et qu’on en sorte plus fort
Je suis perdu sans toi
Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me
You say good morning
When it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
Quand je m’endors tu te réveilles
Et je compte les heures I miss when

You say good morning
When it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
Quand je m’endors (je m’endors) tu te réveilles (tu te réveilles)
Et je compte les heures j’en perds le sommeil
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged, so jetlagged